A little R&R

At long last the summer break without kids is about to start. Even if it is only for a couple days without mine until Dan's come back... Enjoying sitting in the sun, reading a good book and a new found drink. Quite tasty. Much like a red freezy. A little sweet for my usual liking but still palatable. Not even half way through and getting my glow on. Lol What can I say. I'm a cheap date. Lol The ex is supposed to pick up the kids at 5:30 but had suddenly texted that he's stuck in traffic and will be 2 hrs late. Nice! In other words he slept in and hasn't changed a bit. Still the same old lazy man. One day my kids well learn what he's really like. Until then I just keep my mouth shut and play the good mom.  Only 13 more days until the divorce is final.  He'll have the kids until then. Wonder if he'll even show up in court. Not like he's responded to any of my lawyers letters...
Well off to enjoy some more reading and sun...

Back on board...

Well it's been quite sometime since I last wrote and much has changed. Almost completely divorced and lost a total of 70 lbs. Living with a new man and still 5kids...
Unfortunately things haven't been as smooth as one would hope. Eric has fallen into the wrong crowd and drugs leading him down the criminal path and sadly out of my home. Although the kids really miss him,I could not keep him here doing all his stuff while the kids watched and learned. One of the toughest decisions as a parent to make is to send their child out on their own. Especially when you know that he will only get into more trouble. He was bringing drugs into the house and leaving them out where anyone could find them. Reece still put everything in her mouth back then. I swore that I'd never play favorites with my kids but I had to make the defenseless come first. I can only hope that one day Eric will wake up and smell the coffee and get back on the right path. Sadly I think it will be some time before he does so. I've tried to stay in the picture so that he would know that we still loved him but he uses anyone in his life while its convenient and I've had to pull away. Hopefully the younger ones will not make the same mistakes. Dan thinks it will be different as we are always around but I guess time will tell.