Back on board...

Well it's been quite sometime since I last wrote and much has changed. Almost completely divorced and lost a total of 70 lbs. Living with a new man and still 5kids...
Unfortunately things haven't been as smooth as one would hope. Eric has fallen into the wrong crowd and drugs leading him down the criminal path and sadly out of my home. Although the kids really miss him,I could not keep him here doing all his stuff while the kids watched and learned. One of the toughest decisions as a parent to make is to send their child out on their own. Especially when you know that he will only get into more trouble. He was bringing drugs into the house and leaving them out where anyone could find them. Reece still put everything in her mouth back then. I swore that I'd never play favorites with my kids but I had to make the defenseless come first. I can only hope that one day Eric will wake up and smell the coffee and get back on the right path. Sadly I think it will be some time before he does so. I've tried to stay in the picture so that he would know that we still loved him but he uses anyone in his life while its convenient and I've had to pull away. Hopefully the younger ones will not make the same mistakes. Dan thinks it will be different as we are always around but I guess time will tell.